So here's the thing.
LIFE SUCKS.
It is NOT easy. Waking up in the morning is usually the hardest thing to do, because you wake up knowing that today is just going to be another day of trails. Another day of being alone. Another day of him not caring. Another day of cruel words and harsh eyes. Another day of impossible expectations and abusive perspectives. Another day of being the only one to feel this way. Another day of pain.
I have these thoughts almost every morning and every night. Honestly, I'm not gonna sit here and say that all those thoughts are false. Most days are full of trials. Most of the time he doesn't care. Too often people will be cruel, harsh, and abusive. However, I want to make VERY clear that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS THIS WAY.
I'm pretty sure that everyone feels this way at some point or another in their life. Its pretty much human nature. The point is, there are so many people surrounding you, ready and willing to help you; because so many of us have been in your place and felt the same way.
I'm speaking from experience here. I BEG anyone who is having suicidal thoughts to please, PLEASE be strong and wait. Dying will always be easier than whatever it is you're going through, but I promise you that LIVING IS WORTH IT. It's worth the heart ache and all the pain. Life is full of ups and downs. Its pretty bad right now, but it gets better! aaaand then it will get hard again. But guess what? It always gets better again! Every single time! I guarantee it!
This last week was particularly hard for me. My motto: YOU CAN DO THIS. I'm celebrating 175 days self harm free. My scars are healing, yours will too. But first you need to get rid of whatever you're using and promise yourself NEVER to pick it up again. You can do this. You can do this.
Please, don't be afraid to reach out for help. No one will judge you. People love you and want to help you. I love you! Be strong.
