Heart Notes: Loving the caterpillar AND the butterfly

Dear Sara,
Fact of life: Change happens. Technology changes, Fashion changes, Perspective changes, Standards change, Plans change, People change. YOU change.
Due to this, you cannot force someone to stay the same, just like you cant stop a caterpillar from forming a cocoon. You have to allow the people around you to change and grow. You owe it to them, because they allowed you to change and grow.  Yes, change is scary; But without it, life would be boring and pointless.  My advice for you; learn to love watching the change. Love the caterpillar and the butterfly. If you can do that, then all that's left to do is let that butterfly fly freely. 
Love,
Your Heart

Heart Notes: Faith over Fear

Dear Sara,
Fear is one of Satan's Favorite tools. Fear stops you from bringing home made cookies to that persons house, because what if they get upset for whatever reason? Fear stops you from talking to that boy in class, because what if you say something stupid and he thinks your an idiot? Fear stops you from stopping that drop dead gorgeous girl walking past you and telling her she looks fantastic today, because what if she thinks you're a creep or a lesbian or ugly? Fear stops you from telling him how you feel, because what if he doesn't feel the same way? Fear stops you from saying no, because what if you were the person one person they really needed to say yes? Fear stops you from inviting them to church with you, because what if they dont want to come or they do come and it goes terribly? Fear stops you from pursuing your dreams, because what if your not good enough? Fear stops you from texting that scripture reference to your friends, because what if they think your annoying? Fear stops you from doing all sorts of things; talking to the old man on the bench, giving a couple cents to the man with the cardboard sign, dying your hair red,  dancing alone in public, helping the lady load her groceries, stopping to buy lemon-aid from those little kids.
STOP THIS NONSENSE! One of my favorite sayings: "Fear and Faith cannot exist in a person at the same time." How in the world are you supposed to go around as a faithful servant of Jesus Christ if you allow these little fears to bombard your mind? Choose Faith over Fear. Dont be afraid to make mistakes. Dont be afraid of what others think of you. Follow the Holy Ghost and go out of your way to light up someones life. Be strong and of a good Courage.
Be spontaneous. Don't just say you'll try new things and live in the moment, actually do it! Remember, YOLO (You only live once). Screw everyone else! Do something outrageous and crazy everyday, regardless of what others will think of you.
Much love,
Your Heart

Heart Notes: Dont Worry, Be Happy!

Dear Sara,
You know what makes you miserable? Worrying. It stresses you out to the point of breaking down. You worry pointlessly about so many little things that dont deserve to be stressed out over. Listen to me. Take a deep breathe. live each day, one moment at a time; make each moment count. LET GO. Live life. Make mistakes. Take risks. make new friends and let go of the ones who dont make you smile. Love yourself, and who you are. When it comes to the future, remember your main goal; "When i grow up, all i wanna be is happy". Do things that make you happy and dont be afraid to try new things.
Love,
Your Heart

Heart notes: love the person, not the feeling.

Dear Sara,
Be sure that you love the person, and not just the way the person makes you feel. If you only love the way he makes you feel, then when you are away from him you miss his presence, and you are only satisfied when he's right there next to you with his arm around you. If you love the person, it makes no difference how far away from each other you get, you love him like he's right there next to you and are always happy and completely satisfied just by the thought of him.
Love,
Your Heart

Heart Notes: You are enough

Dear Sara,
Sure, you're not perfect. There are plenty of things you wish you could change about yourself. But always remember. YOU ARE ENOUGH. in fact, you are more than enough. Jesus Christ died for you, and to him, you were worth every drop of blood.
Love,
Your Heart

Heart Note: There is a plan

Dear Sara,
Don't worry if your still single. God is looking at you right now and saying, "I'm saving this girl for someone special". DO NOT allow yourself to get desperate. DO NOT settle. God has a plan for you. He is preparing you for that special someone, and he is preparing that special someone for you. Patience is key. Don't give up. It wont be easy, but it'll be worth it.
Love,
Your Heart

Heart Notes

Dear Heart,
Help. You are the only one who really understands.
Sincerely, 
Current, and Future Sara

Dear Sara,
Life is not easy. Ill try to help you through this mess. When you need me, ill be here.
Love,
Your Heart

Little Old Me

I am obnoxious. I sing when I shouldn't. I am short. I sometimes gossip. I am nerdy. I am loud. I dance everywhere. I am dependent on others. I screw up, a lot. I am not popular. I am slower than average. I sometimes judge people without getting to know them. I am not skinny. I am too nice. I'm not very funny. I get distracted easily. I sometimes swear. I have a bad memory. I suck at ceramics and my handwriting is barely legible. I am kinda pathetic.  I am super white. I procrastinate and get bad grades. I am not perfect.

I am well aware that I am flawed. I have looked my flaws in the face and I've accepted them. As my friend, all I ask is that your willing to look past these flaws, and see that I am a daughter of God. 

~Lovely by Sara Haze

The rising generation

We are the rising generation. We must be brave and courageous. We must be strong enough to endure to the end. God is counting on us to keep the spirit alive and spreading throughout the world. We owe the savior at least that much. We cannot rely on the testimonys of our parents and leaders forever. God needs us now. Give him your everything. Endure to the end, and you will be overwhelmingly blessed.

StarGirl

I read stargirl today, from cover to cover. I remember now why its one of my favorites. If you haven't read this book, its definitally one to add to your list!

"She laughed when there was no joke. She danced when there was no music.
She had no friends, yet she was the friendliest person in school...
She was elusive. She was today. She was tomorrow. She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower, the flitting showdow of an elf owl. We did not know what to make of her. In our minds we tried to pin her to a corkboard like a butterfly, but the pin merely went through and away she flew."

"She did not seem to notice. Of all the unusual features of stargirl, this struck me as the most remarkable. Bad things did not stick to her. Correction: HER bad things did not stick to her. OUR bad things stuck very much to her. If we were hurt, if we were unhappy or otherwise victimized by life, she seemed to know about it, and to care, as soon as we did. But bad things falling on her-- unkind words, nasty snares, foot blisters -- she seemed unaware of. I never saw her look in a mirror, never heard her complain. All of her feelings, all of her attentions flowed outward. She had no ego."

"I did not know what I would do if I saw her. I knew only that I was nervous, afraid. I was more comfortable with her as history than as a person... since september she had been a preformer -- unique and outrageous -- on the high school stage. She was the opposite of cool; she held nothing back... she was there for all to see."

"'The thing is, there's no difference anymore between me and the universe. The boundary is gone. I am it and it is me. I am stone, a cactus thorn. I am rain.' She smiled dreamily. 'I like that most of all, being rain.'"

"'I whispered.'
'Whispered? How'd you expect me to hear?'
'I don't know,' she said. ' I just thought you would.'"

"Then she took my arm as if we were strolling down a promenade and she said, 'scream, leo.'
'Huh?'
'Just throw your head back and let it all out. Scream your ears off. Nobody will hear you.'
'Why would I want to do that?'
She turned her astonished eyes on me. 'Why wouldn't you?'"

My off day at subway (Imma poet!)

So today was one of those days where it wasn't a bad day, but it wasn't a good day, it was just an off day. First off, I willingly woke up on time. then, I kinda enjoyed my english class (I usually hate my english class). I saw a human brain and had a hilariously fun time with josh in medical anatomy. I didn't fall asleep in math (possibly because we played bingo). i went to a lecture about sports medicine for extra credit during flex and lunch. I actually passed my foods test. I sang down the hallways with jacob. I was hurried home by ronnie (I didn't sit at the school chatting). I headed over to work a little early to buy Cari's christmas present (I'm the worst cousin in the world). This is where my strange work day begins.
I'm not gonna go into great detail about these stories, but if your interested to know you can ask me and I might tell you. Here is the list of strange things that happened to me at work today:
-hug in hallway before work from the kioske guy
-the quarter game. "Were just as uncomfortable as you are right now." :)
-arbys guy flirting
-12 year old flirting
-that awkward moment when you make HIM a sandwhich.
-seeing the latino divine comedy guy with the mustache
-the mentally ill guy. "Hello young boy!"
-random asking for drinks and extra food? What the crap is wrong with you people!
-the friendly old guys in the car. Just a pleasent hello!

Imperfections and all

There's a boy at my school named Corey. He has some kind of mental disability. He struggles concentraiting and often says exactly what's on his mind. He is in my seminary class. It has been a struggle for my teacher to try to keep everyone happy and spiritual and in control every day. Somedays there is no controling corey, and we just have to sit and wait patiently for him to give the time back to my teacher. Other days corey is just like everyone else, quietly listening and answering questions. Often when he gets up and shares his testimony he cracks a couple of punny jokes and then forgets his message and sits back down, or he'll pick a scripture at random, and somehow apply it to life with animals. Tuesday was different. He was his normal self at the beginning of class. Right after my teacher started the class, corey asked if he could share his testimony. My teacher let him. Corey stood up at the podeum with a sudden humbleness. His message was short, His thoughts were jumbled, and his words were out of order and confusing, but the message the spirit sent me was clear.
He told me that there are three perceptions. First, how we see ourselves. Second, how others see us. Third, how god sees us. The way we see ourselves is infected with the devils influince. We tell ourselves when we see ourselves that we are too short or too tall, too fat or too skinny, too white or too dark. The way others see us and think of us is tainted with unjustified judgement. The way god sees us is the only pure and untainted perception. No matter what others think or say about you and your worth and purpose on earth, only god knows your true and full potential. You don't have to be perfect. You have so much potential the way you are. Imperfections and all.

Thank you so much Corey.